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I've been doing a lot of writing and reading for almost two months. I have always enjoyed writing and reading, but some sort of thing that I can't figure out yet has pushed me to get more deeply into it. No matter the reason, it has turned into a sigh of relief.

There have been a lot of things running through my mind...

there's business - the business I keep, the new business opportunities, the other businesses i have in mind

my family - the dynamic that is permanently changing.

thoughts of grad school - as i delve into writing a book, i am drawn to take on more of a mentoring role

and then .... me. where i want to be, who i want to be, who i share it with.

So to organize my thoughts I've turned towards writing them down and then reading the thoughts of others, so I can understand mine. This process I think is turning out to be beneficial for the student conference I'm attending this week. (www.mafa2010.com) I've been invited by the organization to do a workshop on Entrepreneurship. I don't do this talk too often, as I'm usually asked to do a talk on Asian Americans in music. My perception on Entrepreneurship has certainly evolved and hopefully the students who attend my workshop get a kick out of some of the things I'd like to share and the resources I'd like to provide. I never considered myself an entrepreneur... actually I don't think I learned the definition of it until last year. haha Nonetheless I'm flattered and honored to be invited. I'm looking forward to visiting Indiana University at Bloomington and getting a glimpse of the emerging Filipino American leaders from the Midwest.

I'm pretty sure all my writing and reading has directly impacted this workshop. Let's see how it goes.

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SCORPIO - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want.. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring..

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"Emotions are not tools of cognition; to be guided by whims-by desires whose source, nature and meaning one does not know-is to turn oneself into a blind robot, operated by unknowable demons (by one's stale evasions), a robot knocking its stagnant brains out against the walls of reality which it refuses to see." - Ayn Rand, The Virtue of Selfishness: A New Concept of Egoism

How do you follow your heart without mistakingly following your emotional whims? By throwing in a bit of logic and a chunk of reality. And then you figure you end up needing a balance of all of those things. That's what I'm aiming for right now. I'm jealous of those who are better at logical thinking. I, on the other hand am very spirit driven. Hopefully not to be mistaken by emotionally driven.

I was led to a career shift yesterday. Hopefully it is what I need for the balance I'm looking for. The balance of feeding my spirit, while being able to help people achieve their goals.. individually and collectively together. Sent on the Sprint® Now Network from my BlackBerry®

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I've been faced with many decisions in the past few weeks, and faced with a few more in the days and weeks to come. Some decisions are easy to make, while others are the kind you don't ever want to make.

Following a vision from scratch was the hardest decision I've ever had to make. Throwing away stability, the opinion of others, losing respect from loved ones, and sometimes giving up my own livelihood for others… all things that I have faced from that decision. Imagine having to tune it all out, to listen to the tiny voice from up above telling me what to do, what to say, and where to go.

The hard part is when you can't hear that voice anymore. You start losing balance, you lose a sense of yourself and you have no idea what you're supposed to do. So blindfolded you take one action after the other, hoping you got it right.

I share this over and over with my close friends --

Having faith is easy.

The challenge is maintaining it.

My spirit still lies with the community. Yet I haven't been able to express that lately. So instead of the changes I make seeming like selfish changes, I hope it can be understood that I have the whole in mind. Such a utilitarian am I.

Feels like I'm kicking off my 2010 rather late. Who's pace should we be on anyway? www.sacredspace.ie  

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What's your favorite comfort food?

Mine is cream of chicken soup.

Or. Tomato soup and grilled cheese.

How about hot cocoa with marshmallows.

Or freshly brewed coffee and a roll of pan de sal.

Add to it...

a new book i haven't read

or a fresh new journal page to write in

a favorite movie on repeat.

a dip into a jacuzzi pool

a nap on new pillows and bedsheets.

a sigh of relief to someone who loves you.

A humble prayer for peace....

Comfort food in my eyes.

(Originally intended to be a blog but turned into something more deep.)

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I'm listening to a recording of Lea Salonga performing the song Sun and Moon from "Miss Saigon". Lea Salonga has been around as early as I started noticing Filipina women in the performing arts. In fact, she is probably the first figure in the arts that I could identify with. And I'm pretty sure many feel the same, as soon as she made a mark as being the voice of a Disney princess in Aladdin. As I listen to her perform, I begin to wonder what she went through, how she started, where she came from, her ups and downs, and the challenges we all share as human beings. I look at a magazine with Judy Ann Santos and then I start to do the same thing. I wonder about her struggles, her successes, challenges ... it's the same. I seem to have adopted this kind of thinking with all people I meet. I gravitate towards wanting to understand what makes them who they are today.

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No I didn't make this sign. It's actually an ad for Kentucky event spaces
which I found in an event planning magazine.

This is how I'm starting off my new year.

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