I decided to spend the month of May pretty much just going with the wind. A lot of things took place... Some planned, some unexpected.. And really I woke up each day only knowing what my calendar said, and what was inside my email inbox.
So what happened? I graduated finally. And honestly that feels like months ago now. I got accepted into graduate school. My cousin got married. My other cousin graduated from high school. My other cousin had an engagement party. Another cousin had a baby. Another cousin was visiting from another country. A reunion took place.
Seems a lot honestly for a month. Then of course there's the business I've been working on, which always has something stirring. And well let's just say the waves of this entertainment business does exactly what waves are supposed to do... They go up and they go down, with no set interval in between. One minute there's work to be done, and the next there's none. And the way markets everywhere are going, the intervals are appearing to be much longer. So in between all of that, I can only take advantage of the small or long moment, to plan, strategize, to create ideas, to build new projects, and even come up with new businesses and look for potential jobs. And well...also vegetate, sleep, lie on the grass, listen to music, clean the house, cook, play the piano, get all my car maintenance done...you know..house stuff.
Going with the flow, going with the wind, taking things one day at a time honestly has made things feel pretty productive. After all, I didn't know all of this would happen in the month of May. I'll admit though that it poses its own challenges going this route. As free feeling going with the flow can be, there are certainly some things you have to sit and plan for. I am humbled by great things in life, but I am disciplined by challenges. Some of those challenges include the economy hitting home, possibly relocating, changing my family lifestyle...and saying goodbye to people who I may never see again. Tough it may sound like I know. Again. Humbled by great things. Disciplined by challenges.So what about June? So far there's been some new business, so that's nice. But what else? Maybe more new business. Maybe none. Maybe some traveling. Maybe some staying at home. What i do know for sure, is that I'll be able to embrace all of it.
"I heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason.. Bringing something we must learn and we are led to those who help us most to grow. If we let them and we help them in return. Well I don't know if I believe that's true, but I know I'm who I am today because I knew you." ~ "For Good", Wicked
I've had a blog for quite a long time now. I don't know how many of you reading have consistently kept up with the happenings of my life since then, but I realized I have never really formally introduced myself. Why do I think of this now? Well maybe because it feels like a good time for reintroductions. My next reintroduction will probably be ten years from now.
In case you didn't figure it out yet from my title, my name is Christina Luna. It is very nice to meet you. And it's very nice of you to read this blog of mine.
I'm 29 years old, nearing that precious age of 30. I was born and raised in San Francisco by my loving mother and caring grandfather. At several points in my life, music consumed it - whether I was playing the piano, singing and performing musical theatre, or working behind the scenes as a stage manager, pretend sound technician, event manager - or as most know of me, an artist manager. At several other points in my life, business consumed it and is taking over. I fell in love with Accounting, which evolved into Marketing, and now mostly in love with Management, bigger picture of how businesses are put together, and most importantly WHY. I've dabbled in jobs in accounts payable, selling mutual funds, selling insurance, booking entertainment, managing lots of events, working on marketing campaigns (which I all loved by the way) -- to today developing a business in the artist management and events world. I'm now looking at starting a cute reference website and mobile application for something I'm excited about, so I guess that means I'm about to get into the startup world.
I've always enjoyed reading and writing. I'm a book nerd that's for sure, reading everything from the Life and History of Lyndon B. Johnson, to "Reality Check" by Guy Kawasaki, to how to properly serve in tennis, to the Beatles tour, to theology, spirituality, business, comic books, beer books, cookbooks, live sound books, down to great titles like "Atlas Shrugged" by Ayn Rand. So as much as I read, I do a lot of writing -- journal writing, blogging, music artist features, event articles. I'm also working on two books. One is on Asian American music history. The other is on random occurrences in my life. The writing has turned into speaking and doing workshops --- and unexpectedly it seems writing, reading and teaching is where this is all going.
I used to have a lot of things planned out. But I learned early and fast that I have to embrace the unexpected. Embrace and love that is. So I've adapted a go with the flow mentality with my career, family experiences, and love relationships. In a way I feel that if I follow my heart and listen to the wind - I will always be exactly where I need to be. I used to want it all. Now I only want one thing -- just to know and feel that all my work, family and love -- is real, true and full of faith.
Everything else is always going to be icing. I've got to remain humbled and grateful for every bit I receive.
Again, it's very good to meet you. I look forward to a whole new set of blogs, articles, entries, tweets, a book, and who knows what more. Thanks for following.
I've experienced what it's like not following my gut. And it was painful.
A couple of years ago, I was planning a lengthy large tour. I spent about six months planning.You know when you're on the right track when things seem to fall into place -- when that one contact you're looking for randomly sends you a text message, or when industry sources continue to give you positive reviews. That's what it felt like for six months. It was exciting.
And then on the seventh month, I forgot to consider one thing. The wind can change and all of those signs you received can no longer matter. So on the seventh month, a storm happened. One deal dropped, commitments weren't fulfilled -- and literally a real storm. (Real thing: I was deplaned at an airport for two days because of a tropical level something storm. I'll never forget what it's like to sleep at the airport with a lot of stinking people.)
So even with all of that, I kept going. I kept telling myself -- no no no I've been planning for six months, I am not backing out now. But if you could only FEEL what I really felt inside. My gut didn't feel right at all.
I didn't listen. The tour completely flew away. One disaster after the other, until the whole thing and the people involved dissolved.
I should of listened.
Lately more events have taken place, not at the whim of my gut -- but at the whim of something else. (Not sure yet what.) As my work evolves into a business, I'll admit it -- my instinct gets lost underneath business procedures, protocols, a team, operations… and oh yea, making money.
I'm hoping that my gut… the voice inside… the soul and spirit inside … will stay above all of that. May I remember that the winds will change and you can never force the result. Go where the wind takes you right?
What is it about an artist's dream that makes it just a tiny bit more unique than everyone else's? Is it the odds that you face being a musician, singer, writer, painter? Imagine there are thousands of individuals in the world who aspire to "make it big" and thousands more who just aspire to even "make a living" creating and performing this thing you call "art". See artists are here on earth to touch lives. I mean everyone is here to touch lives in certain ways, but there is something a bit magical about what an artist can create and how it can emotionally touch a person's soul. (As I see it anyway.)
Over the weekend I got invited to judge a performance competition. (Special thank you to the producers and staff of Kollaboration SF for having me.) I've judged competitions before, but I will say this is one of the very few competitions that showcased real aspiring entertainers. You can tell from each performance that they weren't there just because they wanted to win a grand prize, but because each and everyone of them had a message to share.
After the show several artists came up to me to either introduce themselves, ask for advice, or say hello. It happens often, but I start to notice it more as I get older. They don't know and they will now, but I can spot an artist a thousand miles away. Whether my conversation with this artist is one minute, five minutes or twenty minutes --- no matter what type of art or music genre --- there is always one thing in common. HOPE.
It strikes me every time. You can see it in people's eyes. You can hear it in their voice. There is a dream inside each person that has been pushed up, dragged down, motivated and defeated. We all feel it. I feel it too in my successes and challenges pushing my own dream. My dream just happens to depend on others dreams.
Wherever my business takes me -- up or down --
I know for sure I want to be a part of as many artist journeys I can be - whether I spare five minutes, a tweet, an e-mail, a few months, a full tour, one project, or a whole lifetime with them. To know that I can help someone to get at least an inch closer to their dream, I really don’t have it in me to turn away from that opportunity.
What's your dream?
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I've been doing a lot of writing and reading for almost two months. I have always enjoyed writing and reading, but some sort of thing that I can't figure out yet has pushed me to get more deeply into it. No matter the reason, it has turned into a sigh of relief.
There have been a lot of things running through my mind...
there's business - the business I keep, the new business opportunities, the other businesses i have in mind
my family - the dynamic that is permanently changing.
thoughts of grad school - as i delve into writing a book, i am drawn to take on more of a mentoring role
and then .... me. where i want to be, who i want to be, who i share it with.
So to organize my thoughts I've turned towards writing them down and then reading the thoughts of others, so I can understand mine. This process I think is turning out to be beneficial for the student conference I'm attending this week. (www.mafa2010.com) I've been invited by the organization to do a workshop on Entrepreneurship. I don't do this talk too often, as I'm usually asked to do a talk on Asian Americans in music. My perception on Entrepreneurship has certainly evolved and hopefully the students who attend my workshop get a kick out of some of the things I'd like to share and the resources I'd like to provide. I never considered myself an entrepreneur... actually I don't think I learned the definition of it until last year. haha Nonetheless I'm flattered and honored to be invited. I'm looking forward to visiting Indiana University at Bloomington and getting a glimpse of the emerging Filipino American leaders from the Midwest.
I'm pretty sure all my writing and reading has directly impacted this workshop. Let's see how it goes.
SCORPIO - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want.. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring..